foul mood and bad language, inability to sleep and Dragon quest VIII

It’s Saturday and as I write this I’m sitting in a room filled with mess and clutter, and the wind is howling at my window outside. The television is on, it’s muted,and I am watching cycling. it is rubbish. England are cycling around with a flag. I am bored and have nothing to do. I hate days like this. Just sitting in my room, blurry eyed, wishing I could take back the last year of my life and start it all over again. I woke up late and my eyes are still half closed. I could still be in bed dreaming for all my fucking mind knows. I’ll feel this way all day. Lethargic, pissed off and fed up with the whole fucking thing. What am I fed up with? Fucked if I know, people, but i am well and truly, royally fucking pissed fucking off with it.

Oh happy days! A revelation has struck me, and now ‘m filled with a sense of elation. For far too long now I’ve hesitated in writing this blog. Too long have I began an entry only to stop half way through because I think that what I’m writing is shit, that nobody will read it, and that those who do read it will laugh and point at me. Well fuck that! Who reads this? Either nobody, or people I don’t know, and thus could give a vaguless fuck what they think about my incessant, spelling error filled, bad grammar strune piece of writing. So from this day forth I shall write what I want. And if you don’t like it lord, then don’t bloody read it.

So why the sudden change of heart, foul mood and bad language? well I’ve been off work the past week due to an ear infection, which has caused a dreadful ammount of pain,coupled with the inability to sleep. This means I’m tired and pissed off. Seriously though, I haven’t been able to leave the house all week. Have you seen Secret Window? I feel like I have some serious cabin fever going on. The only thing that has kept me from going stark raving mad recently is plenty of sweet tea and long hours playing Dragon quest VIII.

I have the game cued at the title screen now, so as I always do, I’ll cut this piece of shit short.

Mahalo